What is paranoia? what is the truth? What do you believe in? What is right? What is wrong? In a relationship built within a period of time with no other basis other than that certain feeling that made all the difference, would there be unity? When your minds and opinions dont meet, would there be compromise? This debate never ends, and i'm still trying to figure out where should i put myself in this connection.

I am certain that i do love him. I Love Him. But how can you explain my feelings toward this guy when...he keeps on making me feel unwanted. In our situation, i fully am aware and understand that he has responsibilities he needs to attend to, i do too. We have our own separate worlds before we even met, so there's no problem about it. He calls every now and then, and always check on me after his training through text. What bother's me is that he never, never...NEVER make it to see me. I mean, c'mon I'm his girlfriend, WHY doesn't he want to see me?? See what i mean, its just that no matter how i try to comprehend, its just so unrealistic. Even though he has this excuse of being not a romatic person, cmon, i'm already questioning if he really is a guy here. Because a normal guy who is in love wouldn't be acting the way he is to me.... I mean, normally a guy who fell in love with a female would firstly want to be with her most of the time. Even if that guy is the uptight type, he'd surely find a way to spend even the tiniest bit of time with his girl for the day. Even if its just walking together to the train, eating together for lunch, walking you to your next class, going home together, or just dropping by his girl's house after training....it would mean a lot to his girl... it would mean a lot to me...

He asks, what would make me happy? There's a simple straight answer to that, but im afraid that if i said it to him he'd probably just ignore it or he'd be pushed to do it against his will. I'd be very happy if he'd just spend some time with me, even for just a few minutes in a day or a few seconds in an hour...

I know for a fact that i couldn't possibly know exactly what is it like to be in his place, to do what he has to do every day of his life, but one thing i know for sure. I'd never let a day pass without seeing the person i love and make him feel how much i love him.

Am i at fault here?I try to give him chances but he keeps on ignoring it... ako na nga yung lumalapit pero lumalayo parin siya.... ano ba talaga ang gusto niya?