there are things not meant to be done and things happen for a reason, i believe so. I thank the hidden gift given to me, unconciously i'm saved. The try-outs turned to be good, there were three top players eyed by coach dejeve and most likely the two time toby's cup champion would be admitted to the team. As for me i didn't go, first of all i was damn sick cause after playing hard the original day of the try-outs i got soaked in rain and so in the end i had fever; and more importantly, i was really no match for those players anyway.

I've realized some things should be left as they is for the time being, no need to rush things and just watch how it will slowly develop. After that event with the try-outs, i thought i'm pushing my boyfriend too hard this summer. Hey, he's not a player for nothing isn't he? He's one of the top players in their team, and being the co-captain, he must be going through hard obstacles. I still think that he's unfair though, i discovered that he's super biased when it comes to his coach and sport versus other things. He only recognizes tabletennis to be important and needed to be prioritizes, duhhhhh, why did i say this? yesterday he went to an optometrist because he had a check-up. 'The line is long and its eating up his time..' he said, what i noticed is he's very impatient with other important things like this. Another instance is that one time he waited for my class to end, for maybe an hour or less, and he ranted to me like he waited for a hundred years, sigh. But then every time that he's waiting for his "COACH" even if it takes a millenium he wouldn't even mind!!!damn sigh... i hate this feeling... =(